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The Red Room


Being at my father's bedside the last three days before he passed in September 2010 had a huge emotional, mental, spiritual and creative impact on me. I got to witness the mental peace of his transition from this life to the next, as well as his body's physical struggle to remain here with us. I have some of the most vivid sensory memories of my life burned into my being from these days, which have resulted in the birth of very personal poetry and stories... many have yet to be released from within me.

My dad loved football. He played it, he coached it and when he was no longer able to do either of those, he Refereed it. As a little girl, I was enamoured with my father and his role as a Ref.  Because I did not get to see him very often due to my parent's divorce, a lot of things about my father held deep mystery and awe for me. His home was somewhat of a magical place for me, as he had rooms that had names for the color of it's shag carpet. The poem below, is born from that mystery and of his life and some of his precious spoken memories during the final days on this earth.
 
The Red Room

The room.

Named after its carpet.

Like the yarn-strands of Raggedy-Ann’s hair.

Red.


The closet.

Where he hung his pride and joy.

Black and white like a Zebra left in waiting.

Ready to pounce.


Bedside-deathside.

Memories of his youth.

And of his uniform.

Hanging…


In the Red Room.

by
~Carole A. Smith

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