Once your heart is meek… A Sonnet

Truest love is sought by all

Imaginations of hearts a-flutter

Though it so quickly will befall

False dreams heap crushing clutter

I willfully earned this elusive desire

Though only through hardship and pain

My hearts own crushing breaking fire

T'was only through trial did I gain

My sweetest loves of all my life

Were won through hard fought time

So now am blessed as mother and wife

And all that lost was selfish mine

For truest love that which we seek

Comes only once your heart is meek

-Carole Smith * 3/5/2013

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I Am With You

...This poem was inspired by the Bible Study I'm in, covering the Book of Deuteronomy... I am in a desert. I have lost my way. Oh Lord, speak to me... I need to hear you today! Remind me you are here. ...You've brought me this way. You have more for me! I need to hear you say... "You too have a Promised Land! Just look at my hand... see? Lean into my arms, gaze at my plans... Let Me set you free! Though your lost in a desert... Though you've lost your way... I am with you here, my child... I am with you today!" ~Carole A. Smith 10/3/12

This Can’t Be You…

I have been attending my Christian Writing/Editing Group bi-weekly for roughly two years now. For the same amount of time I have been slowly but surely chipping away on my first book, a Memoir. Some of the chapters are extremely telling and memories that I don’t really want to remember let alone share with others. But they are my stories and they need to be told… so the reader can know me, relate to me and hopefully heal with me. I read one of those uncomfortable chapters last week aloud in my group. Chapter 3 - which should give you a pretty good idea about how long I have been holding this one back. I have been waiting until I feel safe. I have been waiting to see if my writing is “good enough”. I have been waiting for someone to tell me to stop writing because it’s not good, so I don’t have to read the hard ones. But this hasn’t happened. So I keep writing, I keep attending and I keep reading. Today as I sit down to go over my edits and colleagues re

The Power of a Mother's Love

~ You held me within you. I was from you -of you -a part of you. But the day I came into this world, you gave me to the world. You left me… to make me better. But you left me to wonder of a mother’s love …and of my worth. ~ October 21, 1971. I was born to a woman I wouldn’t meet again until I was 33, because the day I was born she gave me away. Although I do not remember anything about my biological mother, I am convinced my psyche must have been deeply wounded as a newborn. After I found her, she revealed to me the social worker let her hold me one time in secret, as any direct contact between the mother and the child being given up was strictly forbidden by the nuns who dually served as the nurses in the hospital maternity ward. I can feel, in my soul, the gut-wrenching sadness of holding her baby for the first and last time all at once. I can feel, on my face, her hot tears, anointing me with her pain. I can hear, in my heart, the an

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